I.
I’m beginning to forget
what it felt like to be near you
the voice you used when we were alone
the touch you gave when no one was looking
I only remember
the time I laughed for half an hour straight
and you had no idea why
but I forget
your face in that moment.
II.
and his reassurances that everything would be OK
the laugh we both share
and the way we rub our eyes
I’m beginning to forget
because he’s not the same anymore
I know nothing will be the same
and it will be OK
but he is not the man I remember
and he’s always the same man.
III.
When you walk away
I will push away the memories
of murmurs in the middle of the night
and the thrill of the rollercoaster
I want to forget
when you pulled me close to you in your sleep
I want to forget
brushing my hair from my face.
IV.
We forget that which we want
We remember what pains
Memory glides between tangible and intangible
and slips between the sheets
in the middle of the night
farther away than we ever wanted it to go
This is so beautiful and emotional, i almost cried reading it because i know exactly how you feel.