ordering pizza

So, since I’ve left college, i’ve gained something like 20 pounds. For an once-incredibly fit person, that’s pretty sad.

So I’ve been working at fixing that. I use Jilian Michaels’ 30-day shred. (Click on the image below to buy the DVD and feed me.)

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It’s a really good DVD, but I’m not talking about products here.

I’m more thinking about where I went wrong. I love food. My mom is a chef. We are a foodie family. And my parents, growing up in a war-torn country, did not waste. I was one of those kids that sat at the dinner table until 9 pm because I couldn’t finish my dinner.

That’s translated into overeating and emotional eating as an adult. At the moment, I’m waiting on a pizza.

However, I’m learning to make better choices. Instead of a sausage and onion pizza, I got grilled chicken and jalepenos on a thin crust.

Slowly.

I promise this won’t turn into a diet blog. Promise.

salad?

I ate a salad for dinner. With tuna, hard boiled eggs, walnuts and some fontina.

I hate salad, but it was yummy.

Be proud of my increasing culinary love for salad.

an ode: to food

I don’t often take time to think about this, but I love food.

It’s not that i just like eating, but I love eating. Eating is my reason for being. When I finish lunch, I am thinking about dinner. Even if I am stuffed to the gills, I will find room for something tasty if it passes me by. I fail, miserably, at diets.

It’s my mother. It’s my family. It’s my heritage.

Even before my mother entered culinary school, she was a cook. My earliest memories are being woken up on a Saturday by my brother jumping on my bed (even though he’s the older one) or my mom screaming for us from the kitchen. I would go downstairs, in my pajamas, and make eggs rolls.

I am the youngest, so I was only allowed the job of using a flour paste to seal and finish off the egg rolls. My brother did the mixing of meat, onions, shredded carrots and salt and pepper. My sister got to load them up. Even now, we fill the same roles.

Our kitchen was ugly. grey marble floors, pale yellow countertops and oak cabinets. But it was ours. It was — and is — the place where we gather.

We would make hundreds of egg rolls. We would eat some now, and half-fry some for later dinner parties. Depending on the party, there were plenty of other things to be done. Then, after a days worth of cooking, the house would fill. The adults would get the dining room, and the kids would take over the kitchen. We would eat. And eat. Then talk. Then eat some more.

Food was what brought the Vietnamese community together in my small Midwestern town. Food is the thing that links people far away from home. The taste takes you home for just a split second.

This is where I became a foodie. In my mother’s kitchen, sealing eggs rolls, or making chocolate mousse for an army.

I am an vegetarian?

In the course of my little local eating/green living experiment, I’ve fogured out that I’ve unwittingly become a vegetarian.

Yes, there is meat around here. There are actually quite a few ranches. However, I’ve yet to make it out to any of them or to the co-op where I know local beef is sold. In addition to that, beef sort of upsets my IBS. I’d rather have chicken, but there are definitely no chickens raised for anything but eggs around here. I can’t really drink milk, seeing as I’ve discovered I’m sort of allergic to it.

No turkeys around here either. Or pigs. Plenty of fish, if I find the time to make it to the fish markets. So, I’ve got lots of local veggies and fruit and the soy milk I buy with my “allowance.” I’m a vegetarian. Not even that, a vegan. I’m slowly eating all the meat I’ve had hidden in my freezer, so this will be a serious change for me very, very soon.

Eeks.